The Checklist

Hello there! To all the ladies reading my blog, do you have a checklist for your perfect man? I know I do. I am quite picky when it comes to finding the right man for me. I have so many men that want to be with me, but none of them seem to fulfill my checklist. Does my list contain to high of standards? I certainly do not think so, but you can be the judge of that.

1) He must be a gentleman. I will not fall in love with a man of lower status than I am.

2) He has to be handsome. I want all my friends to be jealous of me because I have a hot man.

3) It is essential that he be easy and compelling to talk to. I do not want to feel threatened or intimidated to talk to him. Rather, I would like to feel comfortable and understood when i talk.

4) Should be unique in some way or another. I do not want another boring man to come along proclaiming his love for me. I want someone intriguing and far from boring.

5) I would like him to be similar in age with me. If he is too old then that is gross, and if he is too young, then that is immature.

6) He must make an effort for me. I need a man, not a chicken.

7) Most importantly, he must love me for who I am. I do not want a man to love me for shallow reasons, such as for my status, money,and beauty.

For seven years, I have been in mourning for my brother who died. During that time I built a wall, not to keep anyone out, but to see who is willing to climb over it for me. Before and after my brother's death, I had many men chase after me, yet none of them were my Prince Charming. But just the other day, another admirer, Duke Orsino, tried proclaiming his love for me by sending over a messenger. I instantly fell in love, but not with Orsino, rather with his messenger, Cesario. He satisfied my checklist. He was my ideal man. He was a gentleman, beautifully handsome (exhibited few female features), and easy and comfortable to talk to because of his "shrewishly" (I,v lines 159-160) voice. He was also unique, because he himself did not love me, or at least he failed to show his emotions. Cesario was of a perfect age "between boy and man" (I,v line158), and unlike Orsino, he made the effort to come and talk to me. He would not leave until I made time to see him as he was "fortified against [Malvolio's] denial" (Malvolio I, v lines 143-144) to him of visiting me. I am not used to someone not loving me or expressing their feelings towards me right away, and Cesario tested my ability to accept that. He is a refreshing man becuase for once, I am doing the chasing rather than the one being chased. Cesario happened to break down my wall. And by him doing that, , I began to fall for him. I tried to hint to him my feelings, but I do not know how much is actually getting through to him. It is making me frustrated. I made Malvolio run after Cesario to give him a ring that he did not leave behind, only as an excuse to tell him to come back to visit me. I am hoping that one of these days, Cesario will finally pronounce his love for me. Only time will tell. Continue reading my blogs to find out what happens with me and Cesario, and to discover the scoop on everything else going on in my life!